as i knew it and random ponderings

so i'm moving to yucca valley this weekend to move into the rented house that me and fiance will call home for the next two years. and while there is this part of me that is excited and thrilled to finally be starting a life with him, there is a part of me that is terrified because everything will change now. i'm scared i will end up losing someone who means a great deal to me because of this distance. on the one hand i know that if i do lose this person, well then we were never very close to begin with and i valued the friendship more than the other person.